Since my holiday I have made a lot of effort to change my situation. The time away cleared my mind, I am focused now on what I really want and I hope the changes I am making will have the desired effect. So far...
.... I have laid the groundwork to leave my main job and go full time in my 2nd job. For a while I wasn't sure if I would be offered a full time position but I did let them know I wasn't happy in my main job and was planning on leaving. I got offered a better package than I could have hoped for and am delighted. I'm afraid to let myself get too excited in case it all falls through. The thought of being stuck in my main job any longer than I have to depresses me so fingers crossed all goes to plan and by Xmas I will only have 1 job and some spare time for myself. I told myself I wasn't going to tell anyone in case it didn't work out, but I can't help myself. After I tell someone else new I'm kicking myself, I should really shut my mouth until contracts have been signed. At my main job now when my boss pisses me off it takes all my strength to bite my tongue and not tell her to shove her job....
.... I've started a part time course. I hope to move into this career choice eventually. It will take about 4 yrs of studying to finish but if I enjoy it I'll stick with it....
.... I'm sorting out my debt. Its something I've been pushing to the back of my mind for about 2 years and its only getting worse. I've had a chat to a financial advisor, I'm consolidating my credit card, over draft and loan in one and paying it all off as 1 bill. It's such a relief just to have that sorted. I probably now should get rid of my credit card, maybe hiding it under the bed will work....
.... I'm getting rid of all bad habits (or at least trying to) I'm starting to eat healthier, try to fit in some exercise although at the moment with 2 jobs its not easy but when I'm only down to 1 I have no excuse....
.... and speaking of bad habits - Mr. X is gone. Enough is enough, he's married and, well, a selfish prick that I can do without....
I hate change, it scares me, it unsettles me. I like routine, I like to know what's going to happen but sometimes things need to change and evolve if we are to live up to our true potential and not live forever wondering..... what if???
