Happy New Year

Yes i know we're almost into Febuary now but its my first post of '09. I haven't posted anything as i've nothing really to say. So far '09 is good, i now only have one job which i am absolutely loving and i have 2 days off a week. I'm aware this is normal stuff for most people but for the last year 2 days off a week is a luxury i didn't have working 2 jobs. I forgot how good it is too just lie in bed and not have to worry about getting up to go to work, to do laundry, shopping, catch the bank before i go to work and then to basically sleep walk home at 11.30pm.

I enjoyed Christmas and New Year. Again a first for me as I was off work for both, i normally would have had to work one or other. Its funny when I go back to my family home how you revert back into old familiar roles, even though i'm a grown woman nearing 30. Arguing with my brother over the tv remote, shouting on my mother to settle the dispute, the same old feeling when my dad goes on a binge at Christmas and my parents argue when he staggers. Myself and my brother in another room pretending its not happening. My mother getting upset and it being my job to comfort her. My brother walking out of the house and my father collaping into bed or falling asleep on the couch. Afraid an neighbour or relative will call around, embarrassed at this drunken fool snoring but having to pretend everythings alright while they're there. My mother going to the bathroom to cover up red eyes from crying, turning the tv up a little to loud to drown out snoring from the other room as i make small talk about the weather. All of this is Christmas in our house but its just a small part, its still one of my favourite times of the year. There's something magical about it - i'm a child behind it all.